Do you sometimes feel like your life is falling apart? Welcome to my world! I have a lot of stuff going on right now, and it’s challenging to find time for my art.
Amongst other things, my cat Luci is not feeling well. She’s having digestive issues, and I worry about her. I can’t be creative when my cat is sick.
I did manage to get a couple of days in the studio last week. I hadn’t painted at all for a month, and it’s always a bit tricky to get back into it after a hiatus. It’s hard to pick up where I left off, and I feel tentative and unsure.
I started off with two paintings on natural linen that I had been thinking about for a while. They turned out awful — see picture below. The raw linen soaked up the paint like a sponge, which didn’t allow it to move or blend. They look boring and ugly
It was only after I got these two “failures” out of the way that I was able to let go of control and paint something more interesting and new. I was fueled by anger and disgust with myself for creating such appalling art. My emotions allowed me to take risks with my colors, marks and design.
The painting below is the result. It’s titled “Dark Night of the Soul,” which is what my life feels like right now. Old things have fallen away, but new things haven’t yet arrived to take their place. I’m in a limbo state of not quite knowing who I am or what it is that I’m supposed to be doing.
This piece depicts the uncertainty and fear of the dark night, as well as the excitement of a potential fresh start brewing underneath.
Click on the images for more information about this painting.
“Dark Night of the Soul,” 30 x 40 inches, repurposed acrylic latex paint on canvas
Detail images of the painting:
I like the way the texture turned out on this piece. It looks like sgraffito with the black scratched back to reveal a design underneath, but it’s not. The vertical and horizontal lines give it a rich tapestry feel.
What has your experience been with things falling apart, and what was the outcome? I’d enjoy hearing your thoughts. You can share them with us in the comments section below.
With love and appreciation,