What Are You Waiting For?

Cassandra Tondro, "Unseasonable Change," abstract art

Hello Friends,

“Waiting for Godot” is the Samuel Beckett play where two characters are waiting for a third who never shows up. Things happen while they’re waiting, and yet at the same time nothing really happens, and the play ends with no clear conclusion.

I feel like we’re all stuck in a version of this absurdist play, collectively holding our breath and waiting . . . for what?

Here in the US we’re waiting for the election next week and perhaps feeling trepidation about what will happen afterwards, no matter who wins the presidential race.

We’re wondering what the holidays will look like this year. Will they be cancelled along with everything else? Will we have to celebrate via Zoom?

We’re waiting for life to return to “normal” while at the same time knowing that things will never be the same as they once were.

Some people are waiting for a COVID-19 vaccine, which could be years in the making.

People in tune with energetic frequencies and the less visible world say that humanity is going through a tremendous transformation, and that this period of unease and unrest will last another four years or so before we turn the corner and our conditions improve. That’s a lot of waiting time still to come!

I love how the natural world knows nothing about our human created drama, nor does it care. When I go out walking, the birds are still singing, the trees are starting to lose their leaves, and things in nature proceed as they always have.

My secret desire is to live in a remote cabin in the woods away from all of the chaos. Except I know that I wouldn’t last there more than a few weeks. We all need other people for our very survival, and therein lies the problem.

In order to continue to survive, we need to cooperate, and cooperation involves agreement. How do we get there from here, when we’re divided in so many ways?

I guess it will be interesting to see how all of this unfolds, if it weren’t so anxiety producing. I really need that cabin in the woods right about now!

What are you waiting for, and what is your secret desire? I’d enjoy hearing your thoughts. You can share them with us in the comments section below.

With love and appreciation,

Painting at top: “Unseasonable Change,” 36 x 36 inches, repurposed acrylic latex paint on canvas



  1. Love your insight and musings with reflections.
    I am “watching” more so than “waiting”. I find it all so interesting. There is a global transformation occurring! Change is a constant factor and accepting change is the key to survival. Society is undergoing birth pangs and the pain has stabbed us to our very core. Those so moved become inspired to express this deep emotion through a medium by which others can relate. This is a time like no other !

    1. Hi Erika. “Watching” is a good way to put it. I like that. Yes, I can see that it’s a time of transformation, but I never expected transformation to be so painful! When I think of enlightenment and transformation I think of happiness and peace, not whatever this is.

  2. I’m waiting for the time when i can connect safely and in person with my family in Louisiana, Kids, grand-kids, great-grandkids. I’m missing that close contact.

  3. Hi Cassie,
    I really like your new painting. It is like looking through fall tree branches into an overcast sky. Seems appropriate…. What am I waiting for? I am waiting, working, preparing to move. The move will actually begin on Election day and into the next. Just 3 miles from here, but a big change since we will be downsizing into a condo. So we are full of mess and boxes and wrapping items all over the house. I have given up keeping it clean. Today I am taking down and packing up all the art which seems to be taking the life out of the place. I have been observing my cats who are aware of the change and seem unsettled. Of course I explain to them over and over again that this is temporary etc. When we move I know they will miss our big back yard with trees, fish, insects, and birds. They will have to become indoor cats and I regret that. I hope that their connection with Neal and I will suffice and that they will be content with different views out the windows. I do hope that by the time we are settled our country will be settled as well. I actually look forward to just dealing with COVID, having time for myself to create my new space and remember how to be creative again. Thank you for your newsletters. It helps me feel connect.

    1. Hi Celia. Yes, moving is a lot of work, especially when you’re downsizing like that. I hope it goes smoothly for you, and you’re soon settled into your new place. The cats will probably be OK. How old are they?

  4. Cassie, I love the question! I’m going to keep asking it. I also love this painting — an invitation to venture deeper into Halloween woods…. : )

    1. Thanks, Rama! I ask myself this all the time now — what exactly am I waiting for? There are things I could go out and do, but I don’t feel like doing any of them. And yet I feel lonely. It’s a weird time, for sure, and I feel so tired a lot of the time. Too much going on.

      1. Yes. I’ve been asking myself, when it’s “all over”, how will I have wanted to have spent my time? What will I have wanted to accomplish, get into, grow into? So far it feels like a big permission slip to be lazy. But we don’t want to be too hard on ourselves about it, right? The absence of contact with others has a real effect. We’re not making it up. Discussing it helps! Thanks for supporting the conversation, Cassie.

        1. And thanks for your thoughtful comments, Rama. I’ve also heard that the planet is being hit with powerful transformative energy right now, and our frequencies are being raised. People say that this adjustment is also tiring. You’re right about not being too hard on ourselves. The big thing that has dropped out of the picture for me is cleaning! I don’t have the energy for it, and no one comes over anyway, so what’s the point?!! I’ve turned into a sloth.

          1. Ha ha I totally relate but now I’ve decided to surrender because it’s gone too far and keeps building!

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