Finding Beginner’s Mind

Hi Friends,

I don’t like being a beginner. If I can’t do it well right away, I don’t want to do it at all. I have to force myself to be patient and allow myself time to be bad at something until I practice it enough to get better. It’s painful.

So it began with a new project I started recently. I had an idea to paint and collage on papers, then cut them into strips and weave them into a new piece.

The first step was to paint the papers. I used acrylic paints because I wanted a transparent look, and a brush. I never use a brush because I suck at using a brush. The results were not good.

Cassandra Tondro painting

Cassandra Tondro painting

Cassandra Tondro painting

Cassandra Tondro painting

The colors are dark and muddy, the brush strokes look bad, and I hated everything about these papers. I gave up trying.

I looked at them a few days later, and realized that they might be OK when cut into strips and woven with other lighter papers for contrast. So I set out to paint some lighter papers.

Cassandra Tondro painting

These turned out not exactly lighter, but brighter. Back to the drawing board. Let’s try for lighter once again.

Cassandra Tondro painting

Cassandra Tondro painting

OK, these are lighter, but how is this all going to come together as a weaving? I just decided to give it a try and see how it looks.

Cassandra Tondro woven paper

It’s kind of random looking. Would a more structured checkerboard be better?

Cassandra Tondro woven paper

Would it be more interesting if I added in some collage?

Cassandra Tondro woven paper

Am I getting anywhere, or is the whole idea flawed?

At this point I have to set it aside and come back to it later with fresh eyes. I also need to think about the background. What will it be placed against and how will that affect the design?

Where are you a beginner? I’d enjoy hearing your thoughts. You can share them with us in the comments section below.

With love and appreciation,
Cassandra

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